Back in ALD (or blah blah 2...3?)

Hey I'm back again! Ok, I know I've mentioned the lack of sleep I've been getting a lot lately and I'm sure most of you know this but if you can avoid it DO. Staying up is no fun, my body aches physically and I might be getting hallucinations from lack of sleep (it's possible) sleep is sssssoooooo good for you DO NOT FOLLOW MY EXAMPLE! I know most of you won't but there are people out there who don't sleep on purpose to get some thrill out of it...I'm telling you there is no thrill, only sever sleepiness and looking like a public idiot. I want work to be over right now, I want to go back to the apartment and CLEAN (and PACK!) I;m sick of things being dirty but I've been so busy I haven't had the chance to really CLEAN the apartment for....too long. I could put on some MIKA and have a cleaning party! I am soooo crushing on Mika right now, bad bad Elly, celebrity crushes are bad!...but Mika...Mika is almost perfect physically for me (he might be a little taller than I like them) mmmm...gaaah I could drool over him for so long...Turning in all but one text book today... that feels really good, so close but so far....hmpf!Although really it's like what 24 hours maybe less till leave, I miss my family. and my friends it IS the holidays after all, most of all I miss sleeping (I am going to sleep gooooooood tonight so I don't have to worry about driving tomorrow)hoorahh! AND I still have Chinese left form last night that should be good for dinner!I'm shooting to be in bed by 11pm. I know it still sounds late but I can't really make up for the sleep I already lost. It's gone for good never to return. So what I have to do tonight is Eat, Clean, Pack, Study. It shouldn't be too hard because almost everything I own is dirtry so I'm taking it home to get it washed for free! I like free! well ta ta till.....whenever I guess! hahaha

I won't stay away long ( I never do!)

I'M GOING HOME TOMORROW!!!

I get to go home tomorrow!! I can't believe it's already here! I'm so excited. Tonight after work I'm cleaning the apartment because it seriously needs it, especially after both me and Annie have been working on final projects and my room exploded paper and fabric ahahaha. Lots I'm bringing home because I have no room up here and it's annoying. I need more space (even if it's just a little). So yeah FINALLY finished line and actually I'm only ok about it. I worked super hard on it which took me super long then ended up having to throw lots of my hard work away because I didn't have the time. Last night I was a wreck, almost crying. My body had had enough physically. I got nausous, have a headache (still do), felt achy. It was like having a fever but I knew it wasn't really a fever. I'm trying to learn from my mistakes but this time it was just bad timing. I worked really hard. As long as I know how hard I worked the grade doesn't matter. I'm excited to start sewing again when I get home! I got some stuff to make! mmm..yes! Once I finalize the plans for the fashion show I'll post them. Because of the huge cuts this year (only letting in 4 desginers from Junior, Sophomore, and Freshman) I cut my garments from two to one. If I make a good second one in record time I'll try to enter it. But I want to make it into the show. So I'm working on an outfit for Annie to model! I'm excited, finally I'll have time to work on it! oooooo shift change coming up soon, I'll probably post again later! today both sucks and is wonderful! odd huh?

Super Ultra Hyper Drive

I'm on like super ultra hyper drive right now. I don't think I've gotten more than 5 hours of sleep per night for a week (save maybe last Thursday, I might have gotten 7). The incredible thing is I feel incredible, not sleepy or sick just full of choatic energy. It might be because I'm totally freaking out about my line project. Pretty much almost everyset back that could happen, has! ahahahahaha. Ok if you know me then add like 50% more energy and nerves that's me right now. I'm almost shaking! It's probably not a good thing right now but I don't care because I feel good, I've got so much energy I could go on and on and on and on and on and on and on...ok, I've got to stop....I can't really find the video I want now but there's this awesome futurama video that is so me right now ahahahahahhahaha! jeez I shouldn't stay on here any longer, I'm talking crazy! I think I'm slowly starting to calm down here at work. Calm environment, much better. And no, for the record, I am not on drugs.

Apparently I'm not allowed in the club anymore.

ok, this is going to be a touchy subject I talk about so please understand I am not attacking anybody for thier beliefs, I'm merely asking questions and trying to find answers. I apologize ahead of time if I say anything rude or offensive, I sometimes get a little carried away.

Ok, so I've been doing some research on the Gnostic Gospels (and Gnostic Christianity) recently and have been a little disheartned by what I'm finding. Pretty much every website I've been to as exclaimed in the first couple of lines that Gnosticism is NOT Christianity. I can see some reason for thier argument because true Gnostics have a different idea on some of the various Christian beliefs. I guess I felt a little jilted as I was raised and confirmed a Christian and as my spiritual journey has matured and as I have asked questions of the faith and of myself I found the Gnostic Gospels and found some of their ideas....insynch...with mine. Then I set upon my research feeling full that as I Gnostic Christian I could still be accepted by (at least) some Christians only to feel like I've been booted out of the club, suddenly I'm an outsider....it just doesn't seem very "Christian" to blantely proclaim that they do not want people like me to be associated with them. Now I'm sure everyone has thier own view on Gnosticism and where it belongs, I guess because both faiths revolve around God and Jesus that it could be counted at a branch of Christianity (though one that I'm not sure is even really practicing today) The basic low down of Gnostics is that they revolve more around the spirit than the physical. Gnosis is knowledge and to gain gnosis (through a process) would make one...enlightened and they would be part of the Realm of God. Here is why I'm certian Gnostics won't ever be counted as Christians, when it comes to the crucifixtion Christians again believe in the physical (Jesus physically rose from the dead (proving life after death)) while the Gnostics believe that only the spirit is ressurected not the whole body. Most of the Gnostic beliefs center around the idea of spirit and knowledge. For example to achieve gnosis (salvation, living ressurection) one must go through a process that has four elements, the elements being Soul, Mind, Spirit, and Body. The point of Gnosticism is to get achieve Gnosis (which some have described as living above the material) it is about a spiritual connection with God though an elevation of the elements not through forgiveness or sacrifice. I do understand the key differences but are Christians really that offended by these beliefs? I'm not saying either religion is right or wrong or one is better than the other (which I know relgious debates always come out sounding that way) it's just a different way of looking at Jesus and God and truth be told if Christians are so solid in thier beliefs why care at all about anothers? I've been reading alot of people knocking down the Gnostic beliefs as if they didn't even deserve to exist. Why do people care what other people believe. Every person in this world has lived a unique life because of this no one's perspectives will be exactly the same but why can't we get to a place where we don't care. I'm not trying to convert anyone here to Gnosticism, I'm simply asking why people keep knocking it down. If I want to believe that the Kindom of God is a spiritual level not a physical place and you are solid in your beliefs (whatever they may be) shouldn't you be congratulating me for finding my way on the journey of faith, not telling me the beliefs have no basis in history and are practically garbage? Again not everyone will act like this but there are people out there who do (or else I wouldn't have read thier writings and be writing this today) Faith is personal, get over it, people will believe what they want to. I'm sorry, it's just frustrating. I grew up with lots of faith freedom to ask questions and discover things for myself and I've always believed in the root of Christianity, and to me that is Jesus' teachings, the fact that Jesus loved everyone no matter who they were, he loved the most hated people. I think that when Jesus spoke of being the son of God, he wasn't trying to be literal (as he did call other people son of God too) but more so he called himself the Son of God because he was close to God, he saw what God wanted for our world and how to achieve that. To truly live like Jesus, wow, I give credit to anyone whose acheived it (I know I haven't) it's not easy, that's for sure. But I'm going to keep trying because at the base of everything Jesus was a spectacular MAN who lived in the most spectacular way, who got IT. someone who understood the meaning of life and someone who died for it. What his personal life was like I wont go into, if you really want to know my point of view on that feel fee to ask me and I'll tell you but I don't think it's worth posting because that can REALLY offend people (as if I probably haven't offended a bunch already) but my view on Jesus could probably push some people over the edge, so I'll play it safe. But again, your free to ask it's no secret I just don't want to go about bragging about it is all.

So I end this all with a saying that speaks volumes of the kindess of Jesus (to me at least)


LET ME BE YOUR SERVANT

blessings on your journeys

Elly

Everybody Needs a Break

Last night I took a break from homework, it'll probably come back to me and kick me in the ass, but my eyes and head hurt from staring at a computer screen for so long and for the first time this week I wanted a full nights sleep (it felt soooooooooo good!) 7 days 7 DAYS AND I'LL BE HOME!!!!! hahahahahhaa whoooooooo!!!!!!!!! I'm excited for Christmas, can you tell? I want this semester to be over, a little less stress in my life will be nice. Plus next semester sounds fun and I can't wait for Cut and Sew Knits in winter! Then I'll be able to make knit garments! I'm so excited! I love knits! Who wants a bikini??!! hahaha! The only thing I'm hesitant about next semester is taking over Ambassador Program, I hope I don't muck it up! I don't really feel like Megan taught me very much or made me very ready for taking it over. mmmm. Oh and I bought my first Stout Apparel last week! Now I have a Stout Sweatshirt huuzzah! haahaa. The Christmas Spirit has swept me up, I feel happy and thankful! but coooold, why is it so cold here brrrrr!!!!!!

Thanks be to the Blizzard! (and God!)

My Prayers were answered! It is blizzarding so hard up here the entire campus was closed by the governor and because I work on campus that means I don't have to work today either! My ENTIRE DAY IS FREE!!!!....to do homework that is. WHOOOOO!!!!!! I'm going to take some pictures to day to show you the one day damage snow can do hahaha

First Real Snow

It's was the first real snow today (well actually still is because it's STILL SNOWING!) It's been snowing since this morning, apparently we are supposed to have at least 6 inches. WINTER IS HERE! hahaha. Ugh too bad I can't really enjoy it. Again for the next week and half I'm going on practically no sleep. My new strategy is power napping. I'll nap from anywhere from a half an hour to two hours get up and work until I pass out for another nap. The word "stressed" can't even begin to explain how I feel right now. So much is piling up. Stupid school. I want to hold out till one am to nap but I am running out of steam and I really only slept about an hour and half last night. Maybe I'll go nap now, set my alarm for 1:30 and start working again then, when I get a little rest. Luckily I've promised myself that I HAVE to go the Humane Society as often as possible because it helps relieve my tension. I forget about myself for that time. Today I went and I'm glad I did. I got to pet kitties and because they were short staffed I helped out the workers do some cleaning too. I pledged to help anyway I can! It just makes me so happy being there! I'm happy at school too but sometimes when the work is so heavy it feels a little more like a burden because if it was just apparel I'd be ok but it's all my other classes too. Not fun. Anyways I think I'm going to nap for a bit. Then get back to work. Whoo!

The Bad, The Good, and Everything In Between

The Bad: There's a case of ringworm running rapid at the Dunn County Humane Society. Both Friday and today I had to leave earlier than I wanted to because I found kitties with symptoms of ringworm. It's not as bas as it sounds, it is easily treatable but it does take quite a bit of time to get over. I feel so bad for the kitties! It's a good thing that I am catching these things though, for both the kitties and the other volunteers and workers! Still though....Get better soon kitties!!!


The Good: Apparently this short clip film I had done for my experimental film class made it into this exhibition to represent the Film Department at UW-Milwaukee! Holy cow! How come nobody told me this? Why was I never informed? I just found out today when I decided to Google my name (Elly not Elizabeth) and I thought my blog might be the first thing to show up (it actually is at the bottom of the page funny!) but instead this other blog for the Film Department at UWM pops up and I thought it might just be my name from a posting, or comment, or some random thing but NO! I MADE IT INTO AN EXIBITION (or well at least my work did!) HHOOOOOORAAAAHHH!! You have no idea what I feel right now! I wonder if I would have known back then would I have gone into film instead of fashion (film being another big love of mine) I was just completely taken aback! What a wonderful St. Nicks gift!

The Inbetween:
All the classes and the work that I have to do for them. I was going to do a bonus project for marketing but now I just might skip it. So much to do I don't know if I will have the time. mmmm, Well see but I doubt it. If I get a B in that class I'm okay with it. I'd rather work on other projects right now....speaking of other projects....LINE!


P.S. Macaroni and Cheese made without the milk. Still good.

Happy St. Nick's!

Happy St.Nick's Day! Have you checked your socks? hahaha! I can't believe St.Nicks is here already, oh the holidays are creeping up on us! (well on me!) It's times like this I think fondly of my childhood. When I was little my mother had handmade our stockings (or was it my grandma?) Either way they were handmade and wonderful! I remember running downstairs in the morning to see the stocked so full they couldn't hang anymore! It was full of candy and small gifts. Many years in a row I got Beanie Babies in mine. I remember sitting in front of our heatvent (it was always cold in our house) in the morning admiring everything. I also wonder what my mom must feel like now. None of the children are at home anymore, no more stockings to fill. Does she miss it, is she too remembering fondly of our happy faces and excitement? Is she happy to have one less thing to worry about? Is she still hanging our stockings up or has the thought of St. Nick completely gone out of mind, has she forgotton?

I also think happily of the day when I sneek candy and gifts into my own children's (homemade) stockings. I can't wait to see thier excited faces as they enjoy thier new gifts and candy. ahh but that's a long long time from now...still I dream.

Que Sera Sera!

Blessings on your journey!

Blah Blah Blah 2

I either have too much engery or not enough, or I'm not using my engery productivly. I've been moving constantly today,I don't know why, I think I'm just anxious to get out of class and go take a nap!....and then do some homework. It could also be the mass amount of choclate covered pretzles I just shoved into my mouth. I dunno, maybe it was the coffee I had last night but it wasn't even a full cup....mmm.

The scoop in line, I've gotten past the report part of the project so now it's on to designing! I'll have twenty-three pieces total whoo! I've already got some ideas I just got to get them down.

This weekend I'm off to look for a job that can give me more hours, cause I need them. I need money :(

Everything else is going pretty fine, small headache but no biggy

muhahaha
I'm telling you something's got me rattled, but I don't know what

Elly out

Ultra Special Blah Blah Blah

I want the semester to end....now. mmm, but I young grasshoper must wait hahaha. Finals are fast approaching two out of four are projects so if I work hard hopefully they won't be very bad! Today I'm going to get a head start on my study guides for the the finals. whooo (at least that's my plan haha). I think what I'm currently worried about is gifts! Oh when will I have the time to make them! on top of that WHAT will I make for WHOM! hahaha I've got Margie's I know for sure!

I never want to give up volunteering at the Humane Society, ever! I love being with the animals! It reminds of being in Guatemala and the children were always soooo happy just that you showed up! They never expected anything from you and loved you for the simplest things. The cats at the humane society are like that too, so happy to see you even though they don't even know you! Many of the cats jump right out at you when you open the cage. I won't lie are are some unfriendly cats at the humane society but they've probably had their tough times. Yesterday when I went in they recieved a new cat, it must have been a stray because it was in pretty bad condition. I couldn't get to close myself but the girl who was washing the cat said he smelled awful and had fur missing and skin! She said something about maybe thinking he had feline luekemia from the way he looked. There were other things wrong with him too but I didn't catch it all. I remeber looking down at the kitten I had in my arm, cradled like a baby. She might have had a cold cause she sneezed a few times and had gunky eyes but that can be commone for these cats because with so many it's hard to keep illnesses contained. But at that moment I just snuggled my face into her trying to cry. Such loving cats deserve happy homes, all the poor cats on the street, it wasn't their choice to be there. Quite a few cats have already been adopted but there is at least one cat who's been around since 2007. It just makes me so sad that these doggies and kitties don't have homes and people to love them. So I want to! I can't afford to get a cat right now so I want to keep going to the humane soceity as much as possible and love all the cats I can!

No longer will sadness and anger creep into my life, all smiles all smiles!

hahaha

Que Sera Sera

May you be blessed in your journeys!