Recently I had been feeling that me and Annie have been drifting apart. We don't really hang out much and anytime Annie's home she's almost always locked up in her room with Neal. But yesterday was Model Call for the fashion show and me and Annie went together (because she's modeling one of my outfits and I'm modeling the other). It was fun! We wore high heels and practiced walking, it made me so excited for the show! After we came back we decided to go on a girls night out and went and got dinner, alcohol, and a movie. We went and saw Where The Wild Things Are, IT WAS AWESOME!! I loved it and how honest it was. It was really nice to have that time with Annie to bond! Sometimes we can be very different but we really get along well together. The only thing that sucked was when we came back after the movie Neal was back from work and apparently sour that Annie wasn't home. It's weird Neal isn't a bad person but sometimes he seems.....clingy? It feels like he wants Annie all to himself sometimes which sucks because then when the three of us are home it doesn't feel like the three of us it feels like THEM and ME. Which ends up making me feel unwanted (and unappreciated when I clean up after them). Neal doesn't really seem to make an effort to be my friend to, I feel like to him I'm just a roommate he has to PUT UP with which I really don't like. I feel a very resentful energy coming from him which I don't understand becuase it's not like I have anything he would want or like Annie spends all her time with me. It's wierd.... oh well. Anyways we came back and Annie was showing him something she bought for her costume and telling him how she somehow put her underwear on sideways (which was totally funny) so I came into the conversation because it was a funny story and I thought we could have a conversation including three pieces so Annie said something to Neal and he didn't respond so she asked him again and he kind of snapped on how Annie was talking to me and not him and that HE wanted to talk to her but she wasn't talking to him. It was a little bizzare if you ask me. Then Annie went into her room and Neal followed and shut the door creating the obvious atmosphere of THEM and ME again and I did all of Neal's dinner dishes. Awesome. I don't know why Neal doesn't seem to like me I've never done anything to him (oh pardon me I clean up after him, bad elly BAD elly Ugh)
oh and part of my ceiling fell down yesterday and a bunch of water came with it soaking half my room so I had to clean up that yesterday after the movie too. It was a good day, most of it.
28.10.09
22.10.09
Menswear
I don't have much time to talk inbetween classes but I want everyone to know MENSWEAR IS KICKING MY ASS! I don't know what men want but I'm trying to figure it out. Let's all pray.
17.10.09
Been Distracted
I feel like even though I've been going to class and doing work I've been very distracted lately and am not really taking things in anymore, I feel like my brain is clogged with tons of stuff I really shouldn't be fussing over right now. I know I said before I was going to start going to church but I haven't yet so I am definatly going tomorrow. I need some spritiual guidence and freedom from some of these burdens that are clogging my brain that should be for school and learning. I feel more exhausted lately too, like I just don't have the energy for anything anymore, once I sit down I never want to get up again and that's not good. I definatly need to be "refreshed" and hopefully going to church will do that, maybe I just need to cry to, I haven't cried in a long time (well a long time for me) and I feel such a pressure from some unresolved issues I have but I haven't had the time to sit back breath and deal with them and cry them out like I usually do. I know crying is usually a sign of weakness but for me it's usually just a pressure release, I bottle up issues until I can't take it anymore and one small thing (movie, T.V. show, song) just brings out the tears and finally feel like I can breath again. I can breath again, sorta.
15.10.09
The Firsts
Well there have been some first up here this week, first snow and first all-nighter. These firsts are not good things! The all nighter was partially my fault since I had a wedding to go to last weekend, my cusin got married! I never though he would be the second to get married in our family, but he was simply beeming that day, it was soooo cute!Anyways my first project for Line Development is done!!!! HUZZAH! Now were on to project #2-Menswear Line ohhhohhhhhh.....crap. I know nothing about mensweear! I have no idea what men like to wear, I'm screwed. On the girly plus side I started wearing actual make-up again, I'm sooo cute hahahaha.
But yes, It has begun to snow up here already and I say begun because it has snowed more than once. It isn't really sticking but the fact that it's snowing already SUCKS! I'm not used to cold weather yet, I literally went from mid 70's to mid 40's within a day, ugh!
Other than just been doing lots of schoolwork and work! hoho!
(and lots of lovin at the Humane Society!)
BYE!
But yes, It has begun to snow up here already and I say begun because it has snowed more than once. It isn't really sticking but the fact that it's snowing already SUCKS! I'm not used to cold weather yet, I literally went from mid 70's to mid 40's within a day, ugh!
Other than just been doing lots of schoolwork and work! hoho!
(and lots of lovin at the Humane Society!)
BYE!
4.10.09
Sober
Hello!
I feel chatty...so lets chat, this way I can avoid work and homeowork all at the same time
Annie and I are offically volunteers at the humane society!!! I am loving it!!! The kitties are all so cute!!! I'm going to start taking pictures if they let me. Sadly (becuase of people like me :D) there is a 30 day waiting period for volunteers to adopt. There is already one cat that I'm eyeing up. His name is Birch (which I am sooo changing) but he's a orange tabby, he's over a year old but he's got spunk! As soon as I opened up the cage he climbed on to me (he's not declawed) as if he was giving me a big hug! He was a climber though and was all over me in seconds (and he wasn't letting go) but what a loverboy! He just kept on purring and rubbing his face on mine and "hugging" me! I feel so bad because the cats aren't allowed on the floor (to keep illnesses from spreading) but there isn't really any counter space for them to play or run around on. I feel like lots of the cats that are all over the place just really need to run around for bit then they'll calm down. I wonder if instead of fostering kitties they would let me and Annie take home cats so they could have some running space for a bit. I've already got some "project cats" too as I call them. One is Dory a sweet grey cat, she wants be loved but when I opened her cage to take her out she seemed scared so I just kept petting her in her cage, I found out she doesn't like to be pet on the head (she'll duck and run if you try) but if she gets comfortable enough she just loves it when you pet her tummy! I put her to sleep! There are other cats that are like that too, oh I just want to help them all! I love doing this, I love helping out pets! I wonder if I stay up here this summer if I could get a job at the humane society!
well on another note
I read Danielle's blog today as she pointed another blog that she read about someone being "facebook sober" and her quite new feelings about facebook. I have been facebook sober for almost two years and I agree that I feel so much better. I'll admit the facebook concept wasn't bad, to keep high school friends in touch during college not a bad idea, in an ideal world where people aren't idiots. Sadly, our world is not such a place. The whole internet social network seems like a good idea but people are self-involved nosy nellies (me included mind you) now I'm not saying everyone is always "look at me Look at me" but I realized that only during the facebook and myspace years of my life did I take hundreds and hundreds of pictures of myself to post for everyone to see and comment. The other girl who talked about this mentioned that people get way to personal on facebook and I agree, worst is the more you know the more you WANT to know. Say if I was on facebook and I saw someone who I may not be close to talk about how sad they were I would probably be more compelled to keep checking there page to find out why despite the fact that it is none of my business. More interesting is that slowly (very slowly) more and more people are feeling uncomfortable (and even guilty) going on facebook. In fashion we learn that when a new trend comes out few people have it and everyone wants it, slowly the trend will trickle down to the masses and the market will be saturated with the trend (at this point the trendy stop wearing it) eventually the trend passes and something new enters. I predict that facebook is starting to expeirence this. Myspace is practically nonexistant now because it became staturated and facebook came along. For a while now facebook has saturated the world making more add-on thingys and expanding and what not, but people are starting to get bored (and weirded out it seems) by these personal web pages that people make waaaay to personal. With all the technology that pushes us forward are people finally seeing that webpages don't bring happiness? (ok maybe briefly they do) I still stand by that if a friend is close enough to me they will find other ways to contact me (which all of my dear friends do) I don't need false friends telling me happy birthday and I really don't need to be so self-aware of how the world sees me. I choose not to play the social game. I hope that the more people speak out about being facebook sober the more other people will listen. Now I'm not going to tell you facebook is evil, as I already said the concept was good, it's people that ruin it. If you love facebook by all means keep using it, screw actually calling people, going out and having face to face contact, who needs that anymore? Sit infront of your computer put off homework, don't pay attention in class (after paying thousands of dollars to be there why would you?)! Facebook isn't evil but don't let yourself get sucked into a world that doesn't exist, remember fresh air? Go out and get some! Go for walks, read a book, do something! Trust me I do not disinclude myself in this group. I need to shut the computer as much as everybody else. But I've been facebook sober for alomst 2 years, what about you? Share your story, please TALK ABOUT IT
I feel chatty...so lets chat, this way I can avoid work and homeowork all at the same time
Annie and I are offically volunteers at the humane society!!! I am loving it!!! The kitties are all so cute!!! I'm going to start taking pictures if they let me. Sadly (becuase of people like me :D) there is a 30 day waiting period for volunteers to adopt. There is already one cat that I'm eyeing up. His name is Birch (which I am sooo changing) but he's a orange tabby, he's over a year old but he's got spunk! As soon as I opened up the cage he climbed on to me (he's not declawed) as if he was giving me a big hug! He was a climber though and was all over me in seconds (and he wasn't letting go) but what a loverboy! He just kept on purring and rubbing his face on mine and "hugging" me! I feel so bad because the cats aren't allowed on the floor (to keep illnesses from spreading) but there isn't really any counter space for them to play or run around on. I feel like lots of the cats that are all over the place just really need to run around for bit then they'll calm down. I wonder if instead of fostering kitties they would let me and Annie take home cats so they could have some running space for a bit. I've already got some "project cats" too as I call them. One is Dory a sweet grey cat, she wants be loved but when I opened her cage to take her out she seemed scared so I just kept petting her in her cage, I found out she doesn't like to be pet on the head (she'll duck and run if you try) but if she gets comfortable enough she just loves it when you pet her tummy! I put her to sleep! There are other cats that are like that too, oh I just want to help them all! I love doing this, I love helping out pets! I wonder if I stay up here this summer if I could get a job at the humane society!
well on another note
I read Danielle's blog today as she pointed another blog that she read about someone being "facebook sober" and her quite new feelings about facebook. I have been facebook sober for almost two years and I agree that I feel so much better. I'll admit the facebook concept wasn't bad, to keep high school friends in touch during college not a bad idea, in an ideal world where people aren't idiots. Sadly, our world is not such a place. The whole internet social network seems like a good idea but people are self-involved nosy nellies (me included mind you) now I'm not saying everyone is always "look at me Look at me" but I realized that only during the facebook and myspace years of my life did I take hundreds and hundreds of pictures of myself to post for everyone to see and comment. The other girl who talked about this mentioned that people get way to personal on facebook and I agree, worst is the more you know the more you WANT to know. Say if I was on facebook and I saw someone who I may not be close to talk about how sad they were I would probably be more compelled to keep checking there page to find out why despite the fact that it is none of my business. More interesting is that slowly (very slowly) more and more people are feeling uncomfortable (and even guilty) going on facebook. In fashion we learn that when a new trend comes out few people have it and everyone wants it, slowly the trend will trickle down to the masses and the market will be saturated with the trend (at this point the trendy stop wearing it) eventually the trend passes and something new enters. I predict that facebook is starting to expeirence this. Myspace is practically nonexistant now because it became staturated and facebook came along. For a while now facebook has saturated the world making more add-on thingys and expanding and what not, but people are starting to get bored (and weirded out it seems) by these personal web pages that people make waaaay to personal. With all the technology that pushes us forward are people finally seeing that webpages don't bring happiness? (ok maybe briefly they do) I still stand by that if a friend is close enough to me they will find other ways to contact me (which all of my dear friends do) I don't need false friends telling me happy birthday and I really don't need to be so self-aware of how the world sees me. I choose not to play the social game. I hope that the more people speak out about being facebook sober the more other people will listen. Now I'm not going to tell you facebook is evil, as I already said the concept was good, it's people that ruin it. If you love facebook by all means keep using it, screw actually calling people, going out and having face to face contact, who needs that anymore? Sit infront of your computer put off homework, don't pay attention in class (after paying thousands of dollars to be there why would you?)! Facebook isn't evil but don't let yourself get sucked into a world that doesn't exist, remember fresh air? Go out and get some! Go for walks, read a book, do something! Trust me I do not disinclude myself in this group. I need to shut the computer as much as everybody else. But I've been facebook sober for alomst 2 years, what about you? Share your story, please TALK ABOUT IT
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