I'm trying not to complain but....

Let me preface this entry with two facts
1. I like my roommates (most the time).
2. I love living in an apartment (all the time).

My roommates are horrible horrible liars. I might have mentioned before breifely that Annie and I had a talk about cleaning the apartment (especially dishes). That no longer was I to be the lone dishwasher and that we would take turns each doing a "load" of dishes per day. I forgot my roommates are horrible horrible liars. This week turned out to me doing the dishes, I did not do them everyday but I was the only one who did dishes at all this week (both being pretty big loads of dishes). Now Sunday comes and the sink is overflowing of dishes that haven't been done since Thursday (I believe, it could've Wednesday) Talk about disgusting! A good portion of those dishes aren't even mine. I have it, my roommate are basically useless and I'm afraid I might lose my mind and hurt them while thier sleeping someday. Now I am going to start doing the healthy thing. After this month I am distancing myself from them. No more community shopping, I'm buying my own food. No more community dishes (I'll do my own and that's it). If their not going to play by the rules then why should I? If their not going to try to be nice then why should I? This isn't the first time Annie's promised me something and hasn't followed through and it's one of my biggest pet peeves to jerked around like that, it's not fair to me! So I've had it. I refuse to do the mass of dishes that are piling up, someone else can take care of them I won't do it. I'm going to admit that that is very hard for me. Above all else I demand a clean kitchen and bathroom. But I'm no ones mother here and I'm sick of cleaning only to hear them say "i was going to do it" no you weren't. If you were going to do you would have. Another big argument I hear for not washing the dishes immediatly after use is "I don't have time." Do they honestly think I have more time than they do! My roommates are in bed by 10:30 most nights while I'm up working till midnight most nights. Well then yes obviously I have more time right? I'm sorry for raging but I'm fed up with empty promises. The next promise Annie makes to me I'll probably laugh at because it won't happen, I know it won't.

The worst feeling is that I'm trying to be nicer to them than they are to me. And they don't even care. I wish my friends went to school here and I could live with them. At least they wouldn't shunt me.

now I'm sad that the loneliest place is my apartment, and I've signed up to do this a whole nother year, what have I gotten myself into? Maybe Annie will go to Germany and I'll get to get myself a new roomie, one that won't break my heart so much. And won't buy $5.00 milk.

I've got to go now and get rid of these ugly feelings.