In Search Of It

I wanted to find myself, so I looked in the mirror
but I was not there.
So I went to look at my pictures,
but I was not there.
I thought I could find myself in my clothing, so I went to my closet.
But I was not there.
I thought I could find myself in Faith, so I went to a church.
I was not there.
I walked around the woods, and listened to the trees and wind.
But all they told me, was that I was not there.
I thought I could find myself in my bed, so I went to lie in it.
But I was not there.
I thought I could find myself in music, so I listened for days.
But I was not there.
I thought I could find myself in my art, so I drew throughout the night.
But I was not there.
I thought I could find myself in the sun, so I went and bathed in it.
But I was not there.
I thought I could find myself in school, so I went and immersed myself in it.
 But I was not there.
I thought I could find myself in a bottle, so I drank it but when it was empty I found
I was not there.
I thought I could find myself in my friends, so I hung out with them
and although I thought I nearly found it still I was not there.
I thought I might meander the earth forever, without myself but forever looking
and so I was encased in fear and yet I found I was not there.
I went to see you, lost without myself
and there on your back
I found myself.
You did not see me
You do not see me
I wanted to go finding myself
And found
I found you
And in finding you
I found myself.