An Update (finally!)

Ok, I've tried to update twice so far and both time by some stupid reason I lost the post before getting the chance to post, so I'm writing the same freaking post for the third time now, so excuse me if I seem more curt than usual. Ok things have been a little hetic for the past week with some ups and downs

big things frist

for those of you who forgot (or I forgot to tell) last Thursday and Friday I went to Texas for Dallas Career Day and let me tell you everything in Texas is bigger! Check out the size of hotels there!

Ok so let me explain Dallas Career Day...The day is split into two sections, Classes and the Fashion Show. The Fashion Show is actually a competition with many categories and each desinger can make one outfit per category, my denim jacket was in the DIFFA category (sort of a different competition). The DIFFA jackets are not given back to the students they are auctioned off to raise money for AIDS. The rest of the garments are given back to the students. Also only DIFFA jackets and trends boards are on display during the day the other garments are either in the show or not (which is probably quite nerveracking for many students) ALSO only 10 DIFFA jackets (out of 40) make it to the runway...here's me and my jacket on display

I would show you some other cool jackets, but I'm too lazy so you'll have to ask to see them later (haha)..
...Back to Career Day...the first part of the day is keynote speakers and seminars from people in the industry they were pretty cool, really helpful information! I really liked our morning keynote speaker, a (very green) desinger named Rene Geneva (doesn't she have the coolest dreads!)

ok at this point you might be wondering...did your jacket make it to the runway Elly?...well I'll start with this...only 2 out of the 5 Stout students that went down got their jackets in the runway show, one was my friend Brooke...the other was
guess who...?



ME!!!!!!! How exciting and wonderful I didn't win anything but Brooke placed 1st in our category GO BROOKE

and just so you know there were over 1,000 students and staff there! WOW! I'm so happy for Brooke...although if your wondering if I was a little sad not even to place your right...

...Although I'd like to say that this displeasure was probably intensified when I got back only to recieve a letter telling me I didn't get money for any of the 4 scholarships I applied for. I know it's not personal and it shouldn't bug me but this really got to me, it really hurt. I was kinda counting on a scholarship and was hoping that for once be honest and truly myself would get me somewhere...apparently not. Ok for those of you who have told me before that I need to conform to get ahead in this world, here's you chance to point, laugh, and tell me "I told you so." It just sucks becuase it feels like I was told, hey your jacket wasn't good enough and then I come home and was told "hey your dreams and just you overall is not good enough." It especially sucks because I know that I struggle with that feeling a lot. I hate it that with almost everything in my life I've had to been told that I'm "just not good enough" I realize now that it's practically impossible for me to get a scholarship, my grade are pretty good (no 4.0 though)-but not good enough, I'm not a minority, my parents make enough for us not to be considered poor (though do these people realize my parents are just paying for my schooling?)...it just sucks because I can never get a grant or scholarship through FAFSA, I can't get one through Stout, and the chance on getting some random online one is like winning the lottery (something else I'll never win). ugh...it's just put my in such a medicore mood...blech...

Of course then I have to dive into a ton of work when I come back too. I had muslin due Monday, and a full fashion skirt due Wednesday, A speech on Wednesday, work, the fashion show tech rehearsal Monday, the student show Tuesday (and the public show Sunday), and a two page paper due Thursday...if your wondering how I had time for it all I practically didn't...Tuesday I had to work all night long on my skirt and still didn't get the lining and bottom trim done (so it was slightly unfinished)

This week I have 3 half scale original dress patterns due Monday, a full scale muslin dress due Wednesday, and a test Thursday so tomorrow will a full pattern day! I want to do a good job on this dress so I'm really really really trying to figure out the best way to do things and taking my time to figure things out BEFORE I start (I would do this all the time if I actually had the TIME to do it) gahhh....

...ok...I'm sorry if I sound like I'm complaining (ok I kinda am) but truth be told I like the work (I don't like staying up all night though) I really do like my classes even though the workload is terrifying many times. That's why this summer I'm going to try and make outfits for next years fashion show...haha I have so much I want to do this summer it's crazy! let's take a look


I'm taking a Stats class this summer
I have one job for sure, shooting for two
I need to start a crochet collection of hats,scarves and whatever else to sell next year
I need to make two dresses for each respective family wedding (one in July, one in October)
I need to make outfits for the fashion show
I want to make an outfit to possibly enter in the Dallas competition next year (were looking to get a huge group of Stout students to enter and go down there)
I want to learn how to knit
I need to master Photoshop and Illustrater
I want to read Deep Economy, and the Dexter Series
I want to re-dye my hair (again!)
I want to get another tattoo
I want to get a new pair of glasses (they would only cost $8)
I want to visit Annie
I want to have a social life too (I must see my Dani as much as possible!)
woof! I am abitious....

well I got to go, I'll update more I promise! sorry for the long wait this time!