The Woman With God

The woman was outraged when she finally
stood before God.
Red hot with anger,
she moved with authority
toward the Great Chair,
closer than most dare.
"Why did my mother have to die when I was ten?"
she shouted.
God began to speak,
but the woman raised a finger
to Him.
"Why did my father have to be a drunk,
beat me, my sister and my little brother,
tell me I'm ugly, dumb, and useless,
then go and marry that witch,
who then, too,
would hit us"?
Again God motioned to answer, but the woman
shushed Him.
"And then for me to have to go through four
miscarriages
and that terrible abortion"
God's eyes began to water, for he knew all too well
the woman's extraordinarily hard life.
For the last time He tried to speak.
"I AM NOT FINISHED, screamed the woman.
"Why,
why could you not give me
one moment to breathe,
an escape,
anything?
And then why did I have to care for that evil witch
until the end of
my life?
Why did you do this to me? Why?"
The woman burst into tears and collapsed on the ground
Upon seeing this, God also burst into tears
Then, in an unheard of action,
God stepped down
from His Great Chair
and lay beside the woman,
tucking her hair over her ears, so to see her eyes.
The woman looked up to see
God himself
overwhelmed with emotion.
Sobbing, He said,
"I needed you to help the people
I couldn't get to,
you had my knowledge
with your hard experiences.
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
But you did such an inspiring job."

-David McWane


I love this poem. So bluntly and well written. I've been thinking about blessings and miracles lately. How it always seems my friends and family are so blessed and get everything they want whereas with me it feels like everytime I really want something it's sure to get taken away from me. But upon reading this I always remind myself there's a reason He (She..) does something. There's a lesson to learn so that I may give my experience to others. Because maybe I can handle it and others may not be able to. Because I AM a lesson. I believe in God and Jesus (and faith) but not in a way most (or anybody) would agree with. I still like to visit church(es) to gain experience, to listen, and to hear what others think but to be rightfully honest to everyone I probably cannot be called a Christian because some fundamental differences I see. I take things abstractly and sometimes in faith things seem to straightforward to EASY. And we all know it's not worth if it's not a challenge. Faith has always been a challenge for me, but not one that I've ever given up on. And it's a good thing if faith is a challenge, if you challenge faith. Because the only way we learn is by asking questions (especailly questions that don't have easy answers) and when we find answers they invariably lead to more questions which will only lead to a stronger support in whatever you believe becasue Faith is personal. We don't have to be the same because no one is right or wrong when it comes to faith and religion. Asking is good! I asked my pastors about Gnosticism a little while back and was so pleased with the answers they gave me. Not because the answers were straight forward but because they were so happy that I was asking. Especailly now when I'm young it's good to seek out information. It was heartwarming to hear how happy they were at my interest.

I know my life isn't that bad, and that I am quite blessed, in different ways than my friends. Sometimes I wonder why I have to be so lonely when my heart aches to love but I have to remind myself that I am alone for a reason. Whatever that reason is I don't fully understand yet but it's getting there slowly. It's revealing strength I never knew I had.

It gives me time to listen, which I need to improve upon most. So I too can hear God. Because God is still speaking,



Blessings