Geez, Ain't It Great!

Yesterday sometime between arriving at Walmart after yarn shopping in Eau Claire and leaving for work I lost my phone. Although I swear I remember bringing it inside the house, after having my roommate call my phone (trying to listen intently as OF COURSE it was on vibrate) I still cannot locate it. Which means it somehow got lost at Walmart, even though I never took my phone out at Walmart and didn't even purchase anything. I checked my car, nada. I won't be going home until Thanksgiving but I don't think my phone plan is up until after then which means I have no idea when I will even be able to replace it. I don't get calls or text very often (sometimes going a week or more without my phone ringing or dinging once) but without it I surprisingly feel very cut off from everyone. Now I don't even have the opportunity to talk to my friends or family and I can't call Walmart to see if they found a lost phone (which I'm sure nobody would turn it in, even though it's a little piece of shit) because I DON'T HAVE A PHONE. I would use my roommates but I worked until 1am when everyone else was already asleep and was up and out the door before anyone was awake and won't be back home until about bedtime again tonight. Not only do I have no way of talking to anyone, now I also don't have an alarm clock (which makes me afraid to go to sleep), or a mp3 player (which just makes me sad). Although school is going better it's still stressful and the added stress of not knowing where my phone is (and what the jackass who possibly took it is doing with it) is going to wear me awful this week and if I can't sleep because I don't have a way to wake up, I can tell it's going to be a looooooooonnnnnggg exhausting week filled with lots of coffee.

But school had been getting better, although it was still stressful I felt so much more positive about things. I was smiling again, and able to take moments to relax. But after losing my phone (which I still can't figure out HOW it even happened!) I can't help but to think "Can't a girl get a break for once?" I'm starting to think if there is a God, he enjoys being a mean little bully to me way too much. Good thing I don't believe in religion, I guess.


Sorry for the rant, but I just don't have anyone to talk to anymore. My friends are either to busy to talk to me or don't want to talk to me anymore (as I've been told). I feel isolated and lonely but here is the only pity party I get because after this post it is right back to the grind.

sigh.


I just really wish life would cut me a break for once.
I could really use it.
but you know what? Yeah fucking right, I'm never going to get one it seems.
Can I give up yet?